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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 18:26:21 GMT

I've heard there was a secret chord
 
That David played and it pleased the Lord
 
But you don't really care for music, do you? 

It goes like this...the fourth, the fifth 
The minor fall
The major lift,
The baffled King composing Hallelujah 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah 
Hallelujah, Hallelujah 

Your faith was strong but you needed proof 
You saw her bathing on the roof 
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you. 

She tied you to a kitchen chair 
She broke your throne 
She cut your hair 
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah 
Hallelujah, Hallelujah 

Maybe I have been here before 
I know this room, I've walked this floor 
I used to live alone before I knew you. 

I've seen your flag on the marble arch 
Love is not a victory march 
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah 
Hallelujah, Hallelujah 

There was a time you let me know 
What's real and going on below 
But now you never show it to me, do you? 

And remember when I moved in you 
The holy dark was moving too 
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Hallelujah 

Maybe there's a God above 
And all I ever learned from love 
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you. 

And it's not a cry you can hear at night 
it's not somebody who's seen the light 
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

a kill bill moment

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 18:57:05 GMT

I hope this is proof enough for you

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 20:33:08 GMT

i heard this song on the radio today, seemed appropriate...

I was blown away

 What could I say

 It all seemed to make sense

 You've taken away everything

 And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life

but good things in life are hard to find

 We'll blow it away, blow it away

Can we make this something good?

Well I'll try to do it right this time around

Let's start over

Try to do it right this time around

It's not over

Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground

This love is killin me

But you're the only one

It's not over

I've taken all I can take

And I cannot wait

We're wastin too much time

Bein strong, holdin on

Can't let it bring us down

My life with you means everything

So I won't give up that easily

I'll blow it away, blow it away

Can we make this something good?

Cause it's all misunderstood

Well I'll try to do it right this time around

Let's start over

Try to do it right this time around

It's not over

Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground

This love is killin me

But you're the only one

It's not over

We can't let this get away

Let it out, let it out

Don't get caught up in yourself

Let it out

Let's start over

We'll try to do to it right this time around

It's not over

Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killin me

But you're the only one

It's not over Let's start over

It's not over, yeah...

This love is killin me

But you're the only one

It's not over

man i need some udon...

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Sat, 27 May 2006 03:36:08 GMT

I want to have a sweet dream
In time with you
To know you’re sleeping,
That you’re just like me
When we’re apart.
I want to be connected
To your heart.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 16:11:46 GMT

so i did the whole google "your name" looks like... thing and this is what i got...

Elizabeth looks like an angel and plays the harp like a dream. ...
Elizabeth looks like a cadavre, more dead than alive, ...

arent they kinda contradictory? and kinda the same too, in both of them im dead anyway...

its like that whole grave thing when you image search my name

i think google wants me dead.

it also told me the japanese pronounciation of my name

It is pronounced "ERIZABESU"

anyway...i found my favorite childhood doll today, the scariest thing since chucky i swear it. its one eye is missing lashes and wont open the whole way, its hair is completely matted and sticking up everywhere, it has bandaid marks all over its body and is wearing a nightgown with a clown on it, but what can i say, i loved the thing. my moms afraid of it tho so i put it on her bed...hehe i cant wait till she comes home. i love being evil.

theres a kitty in my window...

tiff and chris's kitty to be exact.

theyre living here now, for probably a month, then they are probably moving into will's old house

fun

i completely forgot about my history project until today...damn it, i dont wanna do it. i wish school could just be over now...

i have a pretty new myspace, cause i was really bored yesterday...its actually an old one that i never used

and it is called...myspace.com/bizzerk312

39 days

Sun, 21 May 2006 20:23:16 GMT

I saw you sitting there where the shadows end,
The only figure that could catch my eyes.
And when they held you in their gray embrace
Everything else became darkness in my mind.
I see neither the waking light nor the dreamy night,
Just a single shooting star.
I've been consumed by its ever-growing light,
As it grows near, and far...
And I will wait until it's happy arrival on my earth
Even if circumstance never allows it to be right.

myspace.com/bizzerk312

myspace.com/mtweekly

this is all that matters to me...truth and lies are all the same, words are nothing...

Wed, 10 May 2006 20:44:18 GMT

this is real

this is my last entry, i hope it sums everything up

ps: caring about strangers is not a good habit to get into, cause chances are they dont care about you.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 20:38:48 GMT

would you lose your faith in god if your cat died?

okay bad example...cause i did

why is the world so big? why is it so small?

why does a picture of a gravestone with will and elizabeth on it show up when i google image search my name?

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Sat, 06 May 2006 01:25:03 GMT

and just when i thought i couldnt be any more traumatized...

tiffy came home, it was a surprise kinda, she said she wasnt but then showed up with pizza so that was cool.

what is it with friday nights? saturday nights too for that matter...i really dont like them.

your voice is the only thing thats real

your emmotions are the only thing i feel

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 00:34:32 GMT

im planting a garden of sweet williams

i'd like some flowers to talk to

but i really want my sweet william

i cant wait until school is over. i absolutely hate it right now. i have to be a freaking singing fairy. i was picked last...stupid people.

ive realized something today, and that is that this is the first time that ive ended up with less friends than i started with at the beginning of the school year. the truth is i guess, that i pushed them away, without really trying to, but i did. but i still have the people that really matter to me and stick with me and i dont need anyone else.

will is wonderful. ive been kind of depressed today, but he's just so good to me and i can never stay sad when i talk to him or think about him and how lucky i am. no matter what anyone else thinks of me, he still loves me. i dont know what i'd do without him. everythings alright now, but it will be better later. thank you sweetheart *chu* i hope i make you even half as happy as you make me.

they say that the only proof of existance is death, but i think it's love. when you exist for someone else and they exist for you it makes you feel alive. at least, thats how i feel about it.

-moi